I began conscious of it since I saw everyone is so confident about them selves at my workplace. So far, after I graduated college I felt that I never built any close friendship then I ended up lonely and have no one to talk or just to hang out. I always thought that I could not approach people in easy way, In fact,, I am frightened that they did not feel comfortable when I am around. Am I being too serious? Or maybe something about my facial expression? I don't know the answer and it made me sooo frustrated.
I can't stand in crowd or even in group discussion between 5 or 6 people, I always feel that I am not in, I choose to be in silent and always listen even tough I have many things to say, too bad I am too lazy over a little disputation. I could not enjoy the crowded cafe, restaurant, I always want to be alone. I am not being easy allowing someone know the other side of me. I think the won't understand. I don't trust people ... Hhmm..
I feel a little relief after writing what's on my mind and the important thing what's in my heart so far.
how to overcome all my funny self-problems...
